So my whole “blog-a-reflection-a-day” thing went screaming out the window after about 4 days or something…I was on a roll too…
Are you one of those people on your dream prac, where everything is going smoothy-smooth, and your mentor is wonderful, and the kids are wonderful, and you are teaching full days, and you have a unicorn in the corner that farts glitter? I don’t want to hear from you – I love you all, but no, I don’t want to hear from you.
My prac is wonderful, I am learning a truckload about behaviour management and almost nothing on ICT, but I am drowning. My mentor is very supportive, very fair, unbiased, and gives excellent feedback. She makes time for me everyday to sit down and go through whatever I need help with, but I am finding myself massively out of my depth in this class. As I repeatedly tell anyone who will listen, the class is a low-performing cohort in a low Naplan-performance school, and it is combined with SEP. Depending on the subject some of our kids go to SEP, and some of theirs come over to us, and some go out of the class altogether in smaller learning groups, and it is confusing. There are at least 3 children in the class who are classified as “trauma kids”, so are either in foster care or are on the watch list. In the SEP class there are children with severe autism, Asperger’s, cerebral palsy, deafness, and chronic behaviour issues. Someone is suspended from that class every week.
I am currently doing battle with a child who refuses to acknowledge my authority in the classroom, and talks back, talks over the top of me, repeats everything I say, is defiant, refuses to obey instructions, and is disruptive to the learning of all the other students in the room. At the moment she is ignoring her usual teacher because apparently now I am the teacher, not her, but she is defying every move I make. I have had to put together a behaviour management plan – to be implemented in the morning – but I am terrified that it will backfire and escalate. I am terrified that I am going to fail my prac and have to do it again (though, just think how good I would be…), and I am terrified that I will not make it as a teacher. I did not feel like this before prac.
MY mentor gave me a book on behaviour management that was put together from this site, and if I have any kindred spirits out there on this I encourage you to check it out.
Anyway, rant over. I know I cannot be the only one out there having a hard time of it, but if I am not then you others are damn well hidden – please make contact!!!